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Sebenarnya x rasa ape2 smlm bile dgr berita Diyana akan ke Ireland. Rasa gembira sebab itu yg dicitanya sejak dulu dan rasa 'menyokong'. Tapi hari ni, bila baca ayat yg ckp pasal 2 thn tu, terus terasa sebak... huhuhu... penglihatan rasa cam 'kabur2' sikit... screen pc rasa cam nmpk x nmpk... hehehe... slama ni memang dah biasa jauh sbb tu rasa x de sebab utk sedih sangat... yang jadi sedih tu sbb diri sendiri yg nak emosi tiba2... hehehe... mengade-ngade la awk nie...
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Diyana came to my house this afternoon with her mom and her friend, Kak Hanim. They were heading back to KT but I think she terribly missed me, so she paid me a visit... hehehehe perasan... She came bringing urm... should I say good news or bad news?... =( She'll be leaving Malaysia for Ireland to further her studies... and it's going to happen this September... huhu... why so early???

But from the bottom of my heart (broken heart? hehehe), i am truly happy for you... hiks.. =)

Last week I asked Diyana if I can borrow one of her books written by Sophie Kinsella... I couldnt remember the title... I thought the title was PS: I Love You (PS:I.L.Y.)... hahaha... Later then I recalled the title was actually Can You Keep a Secret (C.Y.K.A.S). She brought over tons of her books and to my absolute surprise, PS: I Love You was one of them... hehehehe... and she just bought it last friday... She didnt bring the book by Kinsella, C.Y.K.A.S.. Maybe she forgot and replaced it with PS:ILY. But it's fine with me. I'd take anything that you bring... =)

And here's pictures of zarief snuggling with his bears in my room before Diyana came... huhuhu sibuk je budak kicik nie.. =P
elleh...kunun chomel la tuuuu...

huhuhu... memang chomel puuun... =)
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:: at Madam Rahmah's house::
the cat: Adeh..biler pompuan ni nk lpskan haku???

On the first day of Pre-Employment Programme, each of us had to talk one-on-one to Madam Rahmah... She kinda wanted to pre-evaluate our proficiency in English... I was asked 3 items i wish i had if i'm stucked in an island... erk? wut the heck... i never thaught that coming... i stammered on my final item... yeah plzz dont ask me what the two items were... oh yes, i wasnt allowed to choose a human... hahaha... hmm i cannot think of anything... Suddenly, out of the blue, i said the word "my cat". DAMN. Since when do i have a pet? I never had touched one...haha... i did touch 'em but i never 'mingle' with 'em. It's not that I hate them... i'm just not use to cats... hmm ok be honest- I'm afraid to hold them... truth be told. But i'm alright if they are around... no screamins and freakins... so uncool..hahaha..

Towards the end of the course, i found out that mdm rahmah has many kinds of pets... yes one of them is Felis catus. and she has like trillions of THEM. When I knew it, all i can do was smiled expressionlessly to Aina who couldn't stop laughing. Damn Aina.

As a result, at Madam Rahmah's house, i had to ACT... God I'm evil... It felt akward. arrrggghhh... what have i done... why did i lie...

But finally i overcome the fear to hold them right?... was it fear or plain ignorant towards the species? i'm not sure...maybe both...

I didnt mean to lie at the first place...

One of the things Mdm Rahmah reminded us was to be honest as an employee.. and of course at the interview... coz u might be caught dead if what u've stated in ur resume differs.

Ps: Mdm Rahmah also said that those who have pets are a responsible kind of person coz they take responsibility of their pets...ngggeeeee... who have pets?? hands up plsss.. hahaha... no wani, u can keep ur hands down.. =D
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lawak petang...
sila jgn contohi...


bla bla bla..............

3. It would be a privilege to work for a progressive company such as yours. I read from the newspaper recently that your company has killed two Malaysians and injured two others in an explosion in one of your chemical plant. What's wrong with your company? Have u got any brain?!!! I think you are too busy ensuring the safety and high quality of your products and you neglected your employees's safety.

4. I hope I will be invited for an interview when I could tell you more about myself and ask you more about the methanol explosion. I can be contacted at 012-3456789 or you can e-mail me at petangyangbosan@cari.net.



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~adorable Zarief...waiting for kak Ummie at 6pm~

"Zarief, u can give the flowers to ur mama as soon as she gets back home from work, okie?..."
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I have a few numbers of good friends...
u r one of them...
i thank u all...

B: ntah ar, aku tgh panas hati kot, tu yg pk camni...tp betul gak pe yg ko kata...nk jd cam yg ko ckp la camtu...plus hati mesti lagi tenang, tol x...
A: kan madam ckp kan
A: sentiasa maaf kan org
B: dia ade bg nsht yg 2.ms biler dia ckp eyh?
A: kan dia kata kita klu nk happy
A: maaf kan la org
A: tk salah pun nk maaf kan org
A: hati kita akan tenang
A: lagi kita nk marah lagi tu kita tk tenang
B: a'a
B: terharu aku dgr ko bg nsht ni kt aku
B: hehe
A: aah
B: thanks lah A.
A: biasa la tu
A: ko kena bljar terima keaadaan
A: sentiasa open
A: idup ni cmtu la
A: sentiasa ada dugaan
B: n aku doa dia sedar ngan ape yg dia wat... spy dia insaf...klu doa cam tu leh kan A.
B: if x sedar skrg, satu hari nanti...
B: pun x pe.

Seseorang manusia harus cukup rendah hati untuk mengakui kesilapannya , cukup bijak untuk mengambil manfaat daripada kegagalannya dan cukup berani untuk membetulkan kesilapannya.
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I watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding on TV 2 nights ago with my youngest brother. A quote uttered by Nick Portocalos from that movie catched my ears...

"Don't let your past dictate who you are, but let it be part of who you will become."


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You Are a Life Blogger!

Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary.

If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible.

Entertaining??? hmmm...

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the headache is gone.

No words can describe what my brain is stimulating right now.
any speech will make it worst.
just have to take a break and inhale deep breathe.
so many words colliding in my 'small' brain.
words which will be interpreted as 'excuses'.

i take all the charges and i swallow them hard.
i'm currently feeling numb.

just want you to know that everything done by u since day 1 were very much appreciated... seriously appreciated... tak tipu.

all the care and caress.
the thinking and the thought
all the support
the ears
the late night sleep
the worries
the misses
the give and little take

now exhale...
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Went hunting for job today..
Ayn, Aina and me..
Not actually hunting but we went to SRG filling up forms and answering english comprehension questions...erk... y the fuss??? hope all 3 of us got to b shortlisted for the interview...ngeeee..
In the meantime, i'm still looking for the so-called-fulltime-job... hohhoho...

Then we went to Mid Valley... yeah with our slacks i repeat, with our slacks to Mid, i repeat,we went to Mid Valley to watch movie with our slacks... huhuhu... never done that before... Ayn bumped into her old fren and her fren said to her " hey ayn, carik kije eyh?" ouchhh... Hello, we are in our lunch hour office break ok...hahaha... no big deal lah... ;)

We wanted to watch Ocean 13 but the show tym was too late so we chosed to watch Shrek instead.. hehe.. i didnt watch Shrek 2... kekeke... whatever. However Shrek was ok for 6 hengget.

We chatted and chatted at lunch b4 the movie... by the way, we callled Jay to join us too. so the foursome of us had lunch together... at Oasis... talk talk and talk summore to kill the tym before the movie started..

After the movie, we walked around mid and i introduced them wani's favourite 'cuisine"...Cream puff of la Boheme... They liked it..haha... Ayn said... "gemok laa camnie"... hahaha ...Head back and reach back home at around 7.

And now i'm having this headache... dont know why... maybe i am to exhausted... huhu... gottta get sum sleep... i'm out...

ps: The fwen of mine sent Nitrus-kamu song via ym just now to soothe my headache... hahaha... and i'm imagining dat bidadari and the jin again...hahaha... or am i the 'bidadari'?,,,, hahahahahahahahahahaah...
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A friend of mine dedicated this song to me... hmm he was telling me abt his new house he is currently renting right now... he told me that there are jins in the house and hewas kissed by a jin... I assume it was a female.. harharhar... She whispered to him that he was handsome and that she wanted to marry him... this is achingly funny... soon when he linked this song from youtube to me, and i read the lines, i just cant stop thinking of imagining the bidadari with the female jin he told me...hahahahahahahahaha...


Oh mana bidadari
Yang turun dari kayangan
Indahnya yang tak berbandingan
Terasa bagai disentuh bayangmu

Sesungguhnya kamu
Terang bagaikan cahaya
Yang menyinari hidupku
Di kala kelam... kelam

Terciptalah aku
Tuk kali pertama
Dan akan kubuktikan
Kesungguhan dari hati ini
Hati ini...

Umpama bidadari
Kau selalu menenangkan aku
Biar kadang ku keliru
Izinkan aku menyentuh bayangmu

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Diyana is coming to my house today!!! yippie... She lives in KT but she has something to do here in Sepang. Therefore I invited her to my house. I was caught by flu yesterday and fever this morning but i still made plan to go out yesterday... hohoho... I planned to see my my friends in KL central yet i still made plan to see Diyana (yesterday i planned to meet her outside)... haha wut's wrong with me? I'm not feeling well and i still made plans...not one but two...haha... yeah obviously i AM 'sick'...

It's in ur state of mind...if u think u r sick, then u r.
If u think u r crazy, then u r crazy.
i'm out.


Diyana had gone back home to KT...
i'm gonna miss u...
thank u for coming over...


Once in a while i just cannot help myself from feeling deeply sad and miserable... the memory keeps on haunting even if i refuse to think abt it. and i just have to live with it for the rest of my beautyfool life... i strongly feel that i'll get over it when there's some other important thing for me to think abt... I promise myself... Time will tell... and i keep holding on...

yeah this is my diary...hahahaha...
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Zerra, carefull with ur fingers...hahaha...

5 weeks had passed by... It started out rough and ended in a very mild feelings of blankness... Few hours after the closing ceremony then I felt the strong sensation of sad and sorrow blended slowly into my system... haha it took quite a while for the sadness to assymilate... Sometimes when u r sad, u just dont want to think about it until all the memories come crawling into ur numb brain, that u realize u are actually sad... u just have to...there's no way not to be.

Now, there will be no more the same faces in class, the same faces pooling in aina's car, no more aina's waiting and shouting for my name in the morning , no more ayn calling me early in the "manis" morning shouting loud asking if i care to join for breakfast, no more rushing to class to avoid singing in front of the class if you are late, no more jogging at the lake, no more giving out speeches, no more mdm rahmah's tasty sandwiches, no more crazy nights, no more 'tuang' class for bowling... and yeah not to be forgotten no more climbing up the 4 story building to my room...huhu how i will remember all of this tears and joy... yeah i had cried after knowing my results =P, I jumped and screamed hysterically, insanely, wildly in my room...-Linda was absent to witness my madness. Soon i realized that i was extremely out of my mind...hehe... i shud thank Allah instead... I cried because of the difficult moments i had had through out my final semester and my exam week... IT WAS SOMETHING. it was bitter yet it was sweet. IT WAS SOMETHING WONDERFUL. It is still is. and it will always be.
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1. The phone rings. Who do you want it to be?
>Anybody but him. (!)

2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
>sometimes. depends on the distance. =)

3. In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener?
>can i choose both? erm.. more of a talker.

4. Do you take compliments well?
>yes. but... (tak hidup dek puji tak mati dek keji)

5. Do you play Sudoku?
>nope. but i admire those who do.

6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness, would you survive?
>I choose to say YES. insya Allah

7. Do you like to ride horses?
>I wish...some day...

8. Did you ever go to camp as a kid?
>yes. usually with my family when i was small.

9. What was your favorite game as a kid?
>sorok2, kejar2 (guna kaki& basikal haha),polisentri(haha, how'd u spell dat?),masak2(hahaha...kat sekolah),galah panjang, baling selipar etc.

10. If a sexy/hot person was pursuing you, what would you do?
>pursuing me for what?!

12 . Could you date someone with different religious beliefs than you?

13. Do you like to pursue or be pursued?
>Hate to be pursued. so i think i'll take the first one.

15. Do any songs make you cry?
>Cry---NO. sad--- yes. Rest in pieces-Saliva.

16. Are you continuing your education?
>nope. I will eventually...Insya Allah

17. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
>no, but i want to... i seriously want to kill a bastard rite now.

18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first 'thing' you would grab?
>The first thing is my mom followed by my family members.

19. How often do you read books?
>I rarely read but I wish i read more books.

20. Do you think more about the past, present or future?
>Definitely more of the future.

21. What is your favorite children's book?
>Beauty & the beast? haha... many favorites

22. What color are your eyes?
>Obviously visualize up there in the picture =D

23. How tall are you?

24. Where is your dream house located?
>Somewhere calm and serene... with greeny environment... yes dream in dream in.

27. Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth?
>erk?? nope

32. Do you like mustard?
>more than mayo

33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?

34. Do you look like your mom or dad?

35. How long does it take you in the shower?
>Less then 20 minutes. more than 5 minutes.

36. Can you do a split?
>huhu. no.

39. What did you do for New Year's?
>Think of the memories i've had...Evaluate myself...make plan & resolutions...

40. Did you think The Grudge was scary?
>not at all.

41. Do you own a camera phone?

42. Was your mom a cheerleader?

43. What's the last letter of your middle name?

44. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
>5 hours is enuf. but now i sleep longer to-not-to-think...

45. Do you like care bears?
>They are cute.

46. What do you buy at the movies?
>I buy (more than 1) ticket.

47. Do you know how to play poker?

48. Do you wear your seatbelt?
>no. haha.

49. How many meals do you eat a day?

50. Is your tongue pierced?

51. Do you always read bulletins?

52. Do you like funny or serious people better?

53. Do you have theme songs for occasions?

54. What song(s) are you into now?
sang uh reul sarang han in uh - jo kwan woo ( my girl ost)

55. Do you steal or pay for your music downloads?
>I get it for freeeeeeeeee...
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The past 33 days were the most beautiful days of my damn bittersweet life...
I will be missing all of these... god, why do goodbyes exist?...

Didi, Nisa', Yana, Ina, Ieqin, Mel, Leela, Liza, Tan, Ayu, Fawiz, Masitah, Aina, Azuwan, Yusof, Kaysen, Louise, Amran, Seng Heng & Cheng... 21 all of us...

and yes Madam Rahmah, our respectable teacher, and her 7 years old Arissa who always come on Friday evening... =)

Yesterday she made us Iranian sandwiches which are very very delicious... last week she made us tasty chicken curry puffs... nyum nyum... In addition, she invited all of us for bbq at her house on the last day of the course... huhu can't wait... =) Friends from other classes envy us for having such a wonderful and kind teacher... I wish she is my mother in law...(lol) but her sons are all married... too bad... hahahahaha

I've learn a lot... not only the so called skills during interviews, but the morale and ethiques to be a better person, to lead a better life... My deepest gratitude to madam Rahmah... I adore her passion as a teacher... i admire her patience teaching all of us through out this short course... may Allah bless you Madam Rahmah... I wish i can translate all of these feelings into beautiful words... i lack that skill...

A sudden feeling of melancholy stroke me hard here in my left chest...
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"To those who love me and those who love me not; to those who stay and those who steer away; to those who made me cry and made me laugh; I thank you all for the memories I've had."

he or she..

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