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Have you ever think of who you will be and what you will achieve or what you will have in 10 years time...

Actually I'm trying to figure that out myself...

hmmmm...
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To think about myself...
to think about my family...
to think about my future job...
Think abt my best friends..
to think about only me...
...not to think about anything else...

not to think is:
to be involve in any activities, in any programme,to hang out with them, to do anything that can make me not to think...

By day, i attend my classes that is from 9-5.
In the evening i jog with my friends until 7.
Later at night i attend grooming or IT class until 10.15.
Then i went back to college, do my prayers, wash my face and go to sleep on the spot.
sumtimes i don't even care to do my English homework or my journals...
I slept as early as 10.45...
If we have any plans, we will go after grooming or IT class. We went bowling, watch movie, etc...
We used to skip grooming class (only for once) for bowling... we had fun...We always got back before midnite....
Linda is now in penang for MASUM... It's even harder to be alone in my room...because when there's nobody, it makes me THINK which i am trying hard to avoid...
I can hang out in my friends room, but i choose not to, i'd rather sleep...
I'm totally misunderstood, and i myself never can comprehend this shit.

it's nobody's fault...it's just me...
i have never had regrets...
This is my first.
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I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it
(anywhere I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear no fate
(for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world
(for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart I carry your heart
(I carry it in my heart)

~E. E. Cummings~
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Hari ni hari ke-7 program softskill...sangatla sangap aku mcm ni hidup penuh peraturan dan jadual yang penuh setiap hari... mungkin juga mengajar aku pengurusan masa dan disiplin... bukan itu yang merunsingkan aku, program ni sangat bermanfaat dan julung2 kali diadakan oleh universiti... ye la, student yang dibayar utk menghadiri sesuatu? haha... sepatutnya aku kena la speaking utk praktikkan kan?tp aku sangatlah malas... ni pun tgh kelas IT ... ajar psl internet...huhu internet kah? bukanlah tau semua( byk jugak yg aku x tau), tp aku tersangatlah buhsan... aku seorang yg cepat buhsan... huaaahhh sangap le aku cam ni...

semua ok, cuma bile kena belajar bahasa sepanjang hari, rasa tercabar jugak perasaan nie... masa kelas dulu pun walaupun kelas kimia sepanjang hari, tp bidang2 berlainan...x de la buhsan sgt... ok aku dah membebel... Mdm Rahmah, guru bahasa Inggeris ada berkata, utk mencapai kemanisan, kt perlu bersusah2 dulu, kena berkorban... huuhuu... pastinya itu benar... dan aku sedang menghadapinya dgn tenang di waktu ini... huhu....

Byk sungguh jemputan kawin yg aku dpt... mungkin 5 kesemuanya dan satu hari convocation yg aku perlu hadiri... sedihnya x dpt hadiri semua... 27 may je ada dua kenduri (exclassmate dan kakak member) dan konvo sepupu, konvo spupu tu tak boleh tidak, mama dah warning kena pergi... 31 may, 2 dan 7 jun kenduri kawan rapat, sepupu dan kawan lama...mungkin kenduri sepupu je yg pasti aku hadirkan diri...insya Allah... nmpknya 2 je yg aku mampu uk pergi...

Semalam aku hadiahkan mama sesuatu...mama terharu...seperti hampir menangis tp mama selindungkan sambil tergelak... aku lak yg rasa nak menangis... aku jarang bg mama hadiah... hehe... sll card and wishes je... penah bg kad, mama kata membazir...huhu... tp kali ni, aku nak juga bagi... want to make it special this year... tp aku tau bg mama, ingatan dan penghargaan di hati dah memadai... i luv u mom...

maaf ayat2 ku berterabur... x mampu nak recheck...bear wit me=) have a nice day guys...







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I 'll be attending a programme organize by the university next week and i'll be staying in campus for a month... A programme where we will be reprogrammed and reinstalled with-the-so-called-soft skills and we are the guiney pig batch...yeah... we are the first batch... and we will definitely will be the best ... hahaha... ok, ignore that part...

My friends will be joining it too ... yeah after a semester of missing them due to different classes, now we get to reunite back...haha...reunite la sangat... and i plan to take thousands of pictures in campus before the graduation day... hehe... sukenyer...

The anticipation is undeniable... and since i have nothing to do at home except for daydreaming, stalking, watching tv, sleeping, loafing around and hanging out with my friends once in a while, i think, this is something i should be looking forward to...

but at the same time i feel totally tied up cz my cousin's convocation will be somewhere at the end of may and i hope his is on weekend... and my friend's wedding is in the 7th of june which is devastatingly saddening cz the programme ends on the 8th...huaaaaaaaaaahhh...


urm... remember a senior i've told u before? should i say a crush? hahaaha, not really but yes, maybe... ooo plzz alfattah... ok, i used to have a small crush on him...nothing serius... but actually he's not my type... hahaha, that's not the issue here =D... the issue is, he spontaneouly said he likes me this very amusing evening... hahaha... how irony is that... and he spontaneouly asked if i've watch spiderman 3 yet, and i said i haven't... he asked me if i'd like to go watch wif him... and i was like... did he just asked me out?... this kopiah man just asked me out for a movie? yeah, but he's kind of open-minded kind of guy so i thought he was serius at first... but strangely, he took back his words saying he will ask his friends instead and i haven't answered him yet... i was like... hohoho what's wrong wif ur brain dude?

I made a conclusion that he is 'segan' ( hahaha segan?) or maybe afraid to be rejected by me... yes, he was wise to do so... talking 'bout handling rejection.. hmm... never mind lah bro, i will still like you...hahaha... as a brother... and yes, u r still charmingly handsome in that kopiah of urs...

he or she..

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