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SAYA SANGAT MARAH!!

There was a devision meeting yesterday in AOTD which includes all the staff except us the students

As i arrive today, CHew HUng told me dat she heard, Dr Lim wanted to take away the modem. She also dint know clearly why, bt it came up in yesterday's meeting.

I didnt feel anything as i tot it was jz rumours n i wasnt interested to argue or think abt it since i have much more larger problem to think abt.

later, in the evening, i went to c my supervisor, Dr Ismail to discuss abt my proposal dat was rejected by Dr Rusli.. After d discussion, Dr Ismail talked to me abt d internet issue.

I just got back frm HQ b4 meeting him. It was hot outside. Being inside his office with his broke down air conditioner, i felt like my heart, head n face is burning hearing what the issue was all abt.

He said dat it was brought up in the meeting by i dont know who bt he refered 'mereka' n org IT. Actually Choo bought the modem by the permission of Dr Ismail, n Dr Ismail had nothing againts it but 'mereka' dislike it. errr????why now?Choo had bought it last july. why now???He bought it for the three of us, so it can fascilitate us with internet accomodation since Chew hung had problem to access internet cz there was just 1 internet line before.At dat time, i didnt exist in aotd yet.

Dr said to me that 1st, they want to cut electric cost.. DAMN IT. Does modem/ internet connection has sumting to do with electrical bills???It was supposed to be internet bills. They wanted us to share the line, n use it when we have the urgent information to search for.

?????

2nd, the IT man cant detect which student acces which page since the internet conection is splitted to 3 for choo, chew hung n me...bongok tetapi benar.

?????

3rd.They want us to collect info from the HQ MPOB library or our university library...Which Lee (another master student) said dat she heard from Dr Lim dat "Biar mereka , master student, kena bersusah sikit, bukan senang2 je, n just dapat info dari interet.i cant help bt think is Dr Lim behind all this?Was he saying those things cz he's jz the messenger or is it originally from him?

??????

I said to Dr Ismail dat what if the 3 of us are in urgent condition where all of us need to us internet connection??? He said dat he cant say much in the meeting but he'll try to do sumthing abt it later on, bt now, we have to keep the modem 1st. When he said that we have to go to the library n learn to gain the info the hard way, i told him "bagus la kalau itu reasonnya"(cynically, bt dr ismail seems nt getting the message since he asked me to repeat wut i said again haha), i actually meant to say, do they really meant for us to get the info from the library?or is it just a just an excuse for them to take away the modem?

damn it

I felt weird for this thing to happen..who do they think we are???kuli batak yang siapkan projek aotd utk tujuan habiskan master study saje?( excuse my french)...wut i meant is that, although we are pursuing our studies there in aotd, the task we r doing, r for them too. for their benefits too...

oh my goodness...
these ppl are sick...
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I envy those who have a loving father
take good care of them..

i'm ill
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i skipped class today..it's the last class for the semester..
hd nvr skipped any clas this semester, dont know y today i drove back home..
jz plain lazy, i guess...
i hope there aint any assignment..
i hvent completed my other 2 assignments yet
i hv been working on it since World War II
i tried to finish it but the question given were too hard..huhu
plus i'm very bad at writing
i write/think like a sloth (well dats a very extreme example, isnt it..hehe)
the information are all there but i'm just so lembaps!!!
bt dat doesnt mean dat i'm giving up
my goal is ito complete them this week..
insya allah
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i will not ask for his help ever again for the rest of my life

i maybe stupid bt i'm not dumb for repeating it again ever

i am injured
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the unfit me



Yesterday, i had half full cup of nestum at 7.30am(which i dont really fancy as a breakfast)
Chicken chop (plus coleslaw plus fries) at 1pm which taste bad...the sauce is bad..the chicken itself was fried with lots of 'tepung'...n when you peel the crispy tepung, u can find thick lemak inside...n there it is the thin skinny chicken meat inside...uuurrrgggghhh..due to starvation, i ate it anyway, peeling off the outer part all the way...n the chicken taste a lil bit funny...huhu

Then Chew Hung bought me a piece of blueberry cheese cake (well, i dont know why she gave me a treat...generous she is...), i ate it in the evening after class...

at home, i dun have time to eat, i had to go for a meeting on 8 at pj with Chew Hung n Gwen so i had to rush cz we planned going together...


I already felt the slight headache during the evening class...
It got a bit worst on the way to pj..
in the meeting, i was ok at first but through the end of it, i'm counting the seconds for the meeting to end...
On the way back they asked me to rest n sleep before we arrive n split up at my parked car somewhere in town..
After they greeted me goodbye, n i started the engine

i couldnt stop thinking if i could drive the car in that kind of condition..
but i had to...
The headache was unberable
Then i start feeling like i'm going to throw out but i had to withstand it...huhu
When i reached my taman, the feeling of vomitting was even stronger
I told myself that i was almost there
it was a time when my mouth produce a kind of saliva, a kind of saliva that u know is part of process before u vomit n i know i will throw out evntually...
the saliva produced was too much but i just cant swallow it
I wanted to throw it outside but i was afraid to stop my car in the dark roads
n i did it, i cant endure it any longer n i vomit the things i ate before in the car
eeeeewwww i knoe...it aint nice at all
with ur hands on the stearing n ur mouth, tring not to make it not spill the seat by collecting it in ur hands n throw it on the alas kaki (god my englis sucks heheh)..it was extremely terrible
at the same time i stopped my car at the side of the road cz mansur was callin, i picked up the phone telling him i will call back n i spoke to will in the middle of vomitting..huhu
I remember to switch to N gear when i stopped the car but didnt press the break pedal n the car was still slightly moving
haha as soon as i realize it that i pressed the break pedal immediately

at home, my brother was stunned seeing my pants n car seat covered with puke...
I washed up the seats n stearing n gear holder(hahah it was all over) with my brother
Actually he wanted to borrow my car, dats why he helped..hahah


Then i got changed n swallowed anti-migrain tablet
My mom always take it if she had tis kind of headache, but she doesnt suffer migrain..hehe weird huh


I sms chew hung n gwen i've arrived...
today chew hung adviced me to c doctor..hmmmmm
she said i better c d doc for body check cz its not the first time
n i should build up my immune system
hehehhe she also suggested me a few supplements...

Actually..its inherited..
my mom has it
my aunty has it,
n now..me...
Mom used to almost collapse due to low blood pressure
had headache...feels like vomitting n all...

it is when we eat less or we delay our makan time...
n if mom is too bz, n got tired, n she eat less or delay or skip meals
it will worsen the situation

Its a nitemare..really..
the headache is the most unbeareable part
sometimes u cant sleep unless u take ur medication
i dont know y i experience tis more often dis days...
i already had 3-4 terrible experienced like dis
n other times, i only had headache but i just rest at home
its not too bad when i'm not going out or having some agenda at nite
most of the time the headache always start in the evening (sometimes in the afternoon) n get worst at nite if i didnt get some rest...

my mom said we had 'angin'..lots of it...
huhuu
WHen it goes up to ur head, then the phenomena started

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i wish not to have this angin..
but i cant eat a lot
cz if i do, i will suffer- stomach bloated n laziness to do work
hahaha kidding ...excuses for not eating too much........

he or she..

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